Here is my brain, please wipe your feet before you come inside.

1. I stayed home today. This morning when I attempted to get up my whole body hurt. I don't know why this was. Maybe because I looked outside and it was all dreary and my bed was all cozy and Elroy was laying on my pillow with his paw in my face. And, OH THE COZINESS. So I rolled over and I went back to sleep for two more hours, as you do.

2. My job is SO BORING. I am not sure what to do. I am a contractor there and I COULD be hired as permanent if I would SPEAK UP AND ASK ABOUT THAT. But I am nervous because the last time I did that, at a different company a year ago, they were all "yes, very good idea! We'll talk about it!" and a week later they eliminated my position.The end. Also, do I want to be permanent at a place where I am SO TOTALLY BORED? I have asked for more work. I have to pace out the work I have because if I do it all at once, I won't have any work to do later. For probably days! People tell me just to sit there happily and earn my large hourly sum but do you have any idea how annoying that is? JUST SITTING THERE.

3. So, three is that I should be spending this time writing and looking for writing jobs. I have the whole World Wide Web at my fingertips! There should be no limit to what I can do! But I feel boggled, and overwhelmed. The Internets are a big place and I don't know where to begin. AAAND, it is very hard to concentrate on writing when people continually poke their head over my cube wall and tell me there is a copier jam. Which ISN'T ACTUALLY MY PROBLEM.

4. Last night I had a sort of interesting conversation with someone in which I explained that someone else I love was very sad and I was very sad for her. He kept trying to make it all LOGICAL and MEANINGFUL and "that happens to everyone" etc etc. Well, yes, it does. But now it is happening to SOMEONE I LOVE and it is not logical. It makes no fucking sense. Also love is not logical, by the way. You can't just put a size limit on the amount you are going to care about someone. IT DOESN'T WORK THAT WAY. You cannot lock up your heart just because you are scared of WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN. I mean, I guess you CAN but I don't think that is anyway to live.

5. Sarah Hatter made a new pretty Awesome logo. Please do stop by and check us out. Thanks.

6. Laundry. Piles and piles of laundry. Bye for now.

Comments

[ben]

Some people find love logical, I don't. I think all the logical lovers should go live in some logical land where everything works and nothing is broken or breakable and it's really really dreadfully boring.

[joshua]

oh yeah, i like that awesome logo. it's like money, but fancier.