"I can't be near you, the light just radiates."

"Chemistry is a tricky bitch," said my friend Sarah (Mereubu) once, and I think of that a lot.

How do you explain CHEMISTRY. Or THAT THING that makes you want to be around someone, in their space, just BECAUSE. It is unexplainable! And it is a pain in the ass sometimes. Like when you want to be mad at a person and they keep making you laugh. Or when you cut someone's hair before they are going away on a trip and you just sort of want to attack them, but you can't because they have to go home and pack (phooey).

One of the definitions in Dictionary.com of chemistry is "a mysterious alchemy that brought them together". Mysterious alchemy, indeed. It's that feeling when my stomach is flipping for no particular reason other than the look I just got, or one little word which warms me up from the inside out.

Why does one person do something that no one else can? Does our brain tell us we are compatible with them for some unknown reason? Somewhere in our DNA we are just pulled together like magnets? And WHAT IS THAT REASON? It's what makes me keep trying when some times I just want to give up. It's what can make or break my day, even though I tell myself I can just MAINTAIN my mood for once - and stay the same. It changes and ebbs like liquid mercury. You can't touch it or contain it, it's just there.

And I am making no sense. But how do you make sense of something which is unexplainable?

Comments

[Irishgoddess]

Chemistry is why I'm still, miraculously, married. I can be so upset, so furious with him, and yet he'll still make me laugh somehow. Unless I sleep on the couch, I'm incapable of not spooning with him in bed. Even when I hate him!

[Sonia]

You couldn't have posted this at a better time.