"There's no rhyme and there's no reason, you know the secret in the back of my skull. There's no logic so please believe me, our love's confusing but it never gets dull..."

My parents have this expression they often use. Usually when I am lamenting that things are hard, too hard, and I don't want to deal with any of it - and WHY CAN'T IT JUST BE EASIER!?

The expression is something like "Hollywood has poured acid into my eyes!" Which basically means that all the movies and made up stories we have seen since birth have poisioned us to the fact that in real life it is work. In the movies love just goes along smoothly without any effort or exhaustion and everyone ends up happily in love when the credits roll and if you haven't figured it out yet, that doesn't actually happen. At least to people with a brain.

Sometimes we want to be blind to things which are difficult and where the fuck is the PERFECT GUY who rolls in and rescues us from our hard life? Or that person who we mesh with so beautifully that we never have to do any real ANYTHING except float on our beautiful passionate cloud of love?

I have, for whatever reason, always chosen people who are challenging, difficult, and different from me. If we were all the same how obnoxious and boring would that be? I don't always get along with the people I love and sometimes they really fucking piss me off. In those moments I am so frustrated, so annoyed, and wondering "why do I even DEAL with this? I should just stay alone in my hovel with my cat!"

But then I remember, the rewards.

The way someone makes me laugh so hard my face hurts or how you don't even have to say it because this person who knows you SO WELL already knows what you are thinking, what you were about to say. Your best friend or your partner or the person you call in the worst moments. They know you, for better and for worse. And you think about the reason you reach out for them again, the morning after you cried yourself to sleep.

It's the way you feel about this one person, and no one else comes close.

Comments

[Cat]

Amen! this is exactly what i am thinking now. i mean i love him. sure i need time to myself... time for my best friend. but i love the boy. this is hard. stupid movies. THIS IS HARD JULIA ROBERTS! HARD, MEG RYAN! darn it.

[citywendy]

Right on.