Cruel February, so quick to cash and carry 28 stacks of days.

It's been raining since Friday and I am getting really bored of it. Today I feel as gray as it is outside, I could just sit here and cry for awhile and that would be okay.

I miss the sun. I miss painted toenails and opened toe shoes. I miss swimming and salt and sand. It is times like this when packing up and moving somewhere warm seems like the best idea you could ever have. Who cares if California is about to fall into the sea... it's so lovely there. More than once in the past few days I have said "I am moving to Mexico." Yesterday I said, "we could get a chicken! And eat eggs for breakfast!" Then we could have a dog that would run on the beach. We could have skin like leather and bleached out hair. What would be wrong with that?

In two weeks I am going to Las Vegas for four days. I know it is going to be a whirlwind of activity and I probably won't even get much time to sit in the sun or smell desert air but it will be a CHANGE OF SCENERY and that is all I want right now. I KNOW I am lucky and I have a blessed life but when your boss makes you cry and your friends can't even return your messages it just makes me want to cash in my chips.

And Vegas is full of chips. I hope I have some opportunties to cash them all in.

To start again.

Comments

[patrick]

So is Frito Lay, but I don't think I'd want to spend four days in that place! Heh!

While I couldn't care less if I never see Las Vegas, I hope you have a good, relaxing time.

[citywendy]

Not to run salt in the wound--but February is actually 29 days this year. But that'll just make spring so much sweeter.

[styro]

TS Elliot had it wrong: April isn't the cruelest month, FEBRUARY IS! I always loathe this last month before the sun starts to shine again, and the birds come out and I can plant my garden....

[K]

I totally lied to you: I'm done with winter. I'm so ready for spring.